beautiful disaster

so, sometimes i feel like i am a complete failure.
other times i just feel like i can do whatever it takes for me to succeed.
its never together, but one or the other.

i need to start creating art again.

this summer i plan on painting a mural on my car. but i think i may need some help from my friends. my one friend is a spectacular artist.

my boyfriend thinks i secretly want her, i don't think so. lol.
he is just dreaming.

blah.